i realli hate him

i realli hate him to the core !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i have nv hate someone that i realli wish he will drop dead right now....

i hate the fact that he thinks he contributed so much in this family.. but in actual fact he did not...

all he bought to us was misery... hurt....

i wish i had the power to control ppl... n i will make him die...

no one can ever understand how i feel... ppl may say i am not filial.. but no one can understand why i hate him so much... i just feel the pressure coming down on mi... i just wish everything will end soon...

i realli dont know how long i can take it..

why are other ppl's father so caring... so loving.. so thoughtful.. n yet he so bastard.. i just dont it... bcos of him.. i realli gradually hate staying in this place..

even he onli comes back dont know like once a mth.. i just cant stand the look of him...

dont he have at least some liang xin in him... after all the bad he did...

dont he ever know how to repent in stead of causing of making everything worse..

after everything my mom has done... after mi and my mom paid for his fucking debts.. till i have no money now ! he stil got the cheeks to say mi and my brother are useless...

FUCK HIM.... i seriously hope u go to hell now.. n i mean every single word i say... i dont care if u read this...
come thrash things out with mi like a man la..... i will see wat stupid reasonings u have got to say.....

i am crying real real badly now... i dont know why.. i think i feel realli veri hurt now...